Balance

It is bath time again, I can only multitask so much when my kids are bathing. I already cleaned the bathroom, so what is left...only to create another post.

I feel like I spend my entire life jumping from one side of the scale to the other...isn't there a seat in the middle?

This week my eldest son was picked as student of the week, along with the title he gets a superstar backpack to wear and each day he brings in something special. Monday afternoon he brought home the backpack and it reeked of smoke...REEKED. It was almost like someone was smoking in the backpack. It just made me feel really badly for the previous week's student of the week. GI said he always smells like smoke. ANYWAYS...it made me angry. Angry at the boy's parents, angry at life, just angry. Then GI asked me something and I snapped at him. How do I deal with anger? How do I have emotions and not let them bleed out into my family? I need balance. I am grateful that I immediately saw which way I was heading though. So, I did some damage control and it seems like things are good. I am still angry for my sons classmate, but maybe I should just make a list and start praying for him. I am not helpless, though sometimes it seems like I could not possibly be anything else.

Well, bath time is almost over. The children are starting to get pruned fingers and toes. Until we meet again...